When Happiness and Contentment Allude You

When Happiness and Contentment Allude You

As I sit here trying to explain what happiness and contentment really mean,
I realize it is a state of mind that comes from my heart and soul, that cannot be seen. I read stories everyday that make me thankful to still be alive today.
I have not found any of my old friends from support groups seventeen years ago. Someone else has informed me they have all passed on before me, So I send a one way message to heaven, I will never forget you few, that taught me how to live and deal with all the overwhelming new of brain injury.

I was not around for 14 years as I recovered from a second brain injury and they all also thought I was dead. For fourteen years I walked around like the living dead, Not emotionally feeling what anything or anybody said. I was severely over
medicated and almost totally unaware. I miss my first friends that helped teach me so much about what happens after breaking your head, I needed them each and all.
The bond created by other survivors that truly know how you feel and what you are talking about, is a bond as comfortable as our own cozy bed.

I felt alone, vulnerable and scared to death. I just wanted one person to remember who I was not after brain injury but after that last injury that was really tough to come out of. I had the number one personal brain injury  survivor stories and prose website on the web in 1996 when I was re-injured.www.dickibus.co.uk/wilson/tbi/pandq.htm  I never did find a soul that  I knew before as I journeyed back to the land of the living. I  wandered hesitantly toward the net. Now there is facebook, twitter, linked in and many things that were not around 14 years ago, I so needed a guide, just someone I met. A wonderful veteran came to my rescue. He was my first support, the first that reached out his hand and threw me the life raft I so desperately needed. This  man of  amazing honor and pain sent me my first valentine this very year of 2012. The first anyone had cared enough to send in many, many years. Wow, that sure felt good to someone that hated to even answer the phone! He just knew I cared, and that first relationship gave me the courage to keep going forward into the totally unknown to try to reveal how to handle all that I knew seventeen years ago as a MTBI survivor, researcher and website administrator and writer. How do you put a generic name like mine together that someone lived to come full circle and I wrote about it the whole way. I still don’t know. I now also know the journey  through moderate to severe brain injury and due to God’s grace able to come back and share all I learned along the way. The reason it matters so much to me, is I truly want to be able to make this journey easier for you and your loved ones. I find my contentment knowing if I take the time to write it, many of you will read it and learn way before your time. That thrills me! I would just like to be one of your guides.
I do not have all the answers,, I just have a long history with a unique point of view. I am doing my best to get the information together I have seen so many searching for. I have been asked to open up for Q&A  and I am considering it, once a week, I will let you know what day. I ask for my sake well formed questions that you feel will benefit the majority, because we are reaching a large group of people from here!

I want to especially thank that special veteran for opening up what I thought was a closed door in my life. As he would say to me, I salute You!

Debbie Wilson
Http://www.noahsarkconsulting.blogspot.com/
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